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5.15.2003
gawd! i can't sleep! i don't have anything to do! nobody i can talk to is online! and nobody is replying to my messages! hmm... probably coz by this time, most people are already asleep and i'm still up... i hope my brother gets home soon... i know that we won't be able to tak when he gets home coz he'll already want to sleep but i still want to wait for him... maybe i can talk to him until i get sleepy coz he can't sleep while i'm talking to him! hahahaha... joke lang kuya mik!
for the second week in a row(this sunday), i won't see my crush.. like there's a difference whether or not i see him! but i still want to get to talk to him... though we don't really talk to each other that much, i miss him... uuuyy i do! i don't know why, though... uh - oh! i'm stuck with avril's vid again! tsk tsk... it's just that i like the lyrics of one of her songs... can relate! not about love though... no duh! i'm just typing whatever comes to mind now... i just want to have something to do that's why i'm blogging... i don't even have any stories anymore! i already have 3 posts for just this day... well, technicaly, yesterday... it's already 1:29am... if my mom finds out that i'm still awake and in front of the computer yet again, she's gonna kill me! tsk, tsk... but i really can't sleep! i already woke up at 10am and i did so many stuff but i still can't sleep! errrr.... i want to play badminton! hahahaha.. ooh! kuya mik's here! babye!
isn't it nice to know that you've helped a person in any way and be thanked for being there for them? this week has been very... touching? overwhelming? i don't know what word to use... basta! gets niyo na yun! i felt needed... i didn't feel like they just opened up to me coz i wanted them to... and i didn't even need to ask them to tell me.... it was like they were me waiting for someone to arrive... to talk to... *touched* it's so touching to see them say thanks... im happy with just that...it's just like with the collage thing... if you don't know that "story", you can still read it here if you want... it's on the march 26 entry... so anyway, i feel as happy as i was that day... when i saw her reaction... but, don't get me wrong... i don't have a crush on her like some people think... there! i saw the perfect thing to say about how i feel... " i was happy that i made someone happy.." that was what i said in the march 26 blog...
i just hope all of you are ok... and if you're not, i'm here for you to talk to... kahit ibuhos niyo na saken lahat, ok lang.. malakas kayo saken e...
hmmm.. i'm sure i'm not the only one who noticed... everyone has been making their own blogsites lately.... siguro kung hindi libre gumawa ng blogsite, ang yaman na ng blogger.com! i'm not joking... everyone has a blogsite! what's worse is that sometimes i feel like i've seen that site before coz some have the same templates and even the mouse trails! hopefully my blogsite is/will be unique... that's why i'm trying to put personal touches in every way i can so that it won't be just like any other blogsite... no offense to those who have blogsites too! sometimes i think the only thing that's different in these blogsites are their url's! i actually had a hard time "creating" this new blog coz i couldn't seem to think of a unique url (try to count how many times i will mention unique in this entry)! littlethings was taken.. session was taken... from the inside was taken... wastingmytime was taken... redandblack was taken.. so, after 5 failed tries, i tried to think really hard about what word/s i like that nobody else could think about using... so there! i thought, redtsakablack! i thought that probably.. well, surely, not all those people who had blogsites were filipinos... instead of and, i used tsaka...
so that's today's story... hahaha... babye!
5.14.2003
hello! :) i just saw and recorded GC's new vid... AT LAST!! just the other day, i was taking GC/Simple Plan quizzes in this quiz site... and i discovered that i am more like pierre than i am like joel... and i am more like benji than i am like joel... AND i am more like billy than i am like benji or joel... hahahaha... obssessed fan on the loose!!! :b hahahahaha...
5.13.2003
whoohoo!!! here ya go... new blog! i deleted the other two coz i couldn't use them and it doesn't seem to be updated... so, here..
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likes:: music. writing. reading. internet. friends. guitar. cds. radio. tv. benji madden. joel madden. pierre bouvier. andy roddick. HiM. sacramento kings. basketball. badminton. blog. red. black. orange. good charlotte. simple plan. linkin park. default. john mayer. all american rejects. the ataris. yahoo. google. blogger. the fast and the furious. monsters, inc. ten things i hate about you. lizzie mcguire. sana'y wala nang wakas. csi. six feet under. hates:: avril lavigne. f4. meteor garden. bestfriends. wants:: ten things i hate about you dvd. spin mag featuring simple plan. blender mag featuring simple plan. new shoes. new pants. the guardian by nicholas sparks. almost kinda acoustic. movin' on - GC when i think about my life i wonder if i will survive to live to see 25 or will i just fall? like all my friends, they just keep dying people 'round me always crying in this place that i like to call my home not everybody knows that everybody goes to a better place not everybody knows that everyone could be living their last days but the hard times will come, and we'll keep movin' on, we're movin' up keep movin' on life. hope. truth. trust. faith. pride. love. lust. on without the things we've lost the things we've gained we'll take with us and all i've got are these two hands to make myself a better man i wonder if i'll ever see the end of this with all this rain it just keeps falling on my head and now i'm calling out to someone else to help me make it through pain. hate. lies. guilt. laugh. cry. live. die. some friends become enemies some friends become your family make the best with what you're given this ain't dying this is living! said we're movin' on, and we got nothing to prove to anyone 'cause we'll get through we're movin' on and on and on and on... keep movin' on easier to run - LP it's easier to run replacing this pain with something numb it's so much easier to go than face all this pain here all alone something has been taken from deep inside of me a secret i've kept locked away no one can ever see wounds so deep they never show they never go away like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played if i could change i would take back the pain i would retrace every wrong move that i made i would if i could stand up and take the blame i would if i could take all the shame to the grave i would sometimes i remember the darkness of my past bringing back these memories i wish i didn't have sometimes i think of letting go and never looking back and never moving forward so there would never be a past just washing it aside all of the helplessness inside pretending i don't feel misplaced is so much simpler than change you're good! |