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5.25.2003
here goes, glennie...
guess what?! it's sunday... well. technically, it's already monday but, what the hey! (uii, rhyming!) it's still sunday for me... hmmm... the long awaited sunday... i can't believe i'm actually gonna talk about this here knowing that i've informed one of my "choir mates" that this is my blog and told her to visit it... mia, shhhh... to continue... i heard mass 2 times today... again... on our way to the parish, i was actually feeling cold but i'm not really sure whether it was coz i was "nervous" or it was really just the weather... anyway, too much of my excitement... he didn't hear the first mass... his sister told me that they will hear the second mass... hmmm... bitin! i think i'm being too descriptive... i'm giving all the clues away about who "he" is... i can't just say, "who cares?" coz i do care... i don't want "him" to know that i like "him"... and, just so you know, im not typing "him" to cover up that i like a girl... NO, you've got the wrong idea... i think i'm already getting you confused... so i'll just continue the story.. he arrived just seconds before the second mass started... and for whatever reason, i wasn't as excited to see him as i was last sunday up to yesterday(saturday)... but i did want to see him and talk to him... skip, skip.. he handed me his phone in one of the parts in the mass that we were seated.. he let me read one of the messages in his inbox.. it was a semi-love quote sent to him by his crush... ouch! what was weird about it was that it was the right quote for his situation in connection to his crush and at the same time the right quote for me in connection to him... in the last part of the quote, it somehow said not to mind that the person you love is the reason why you are hurting coz that person is also the reason why you learned to love... the good part:: when it was time to "make peace" (huh?!), i was surprised at what i saw... (ooh, by the way, my family was sitting near the choir, just a bench away from us... ) he was facing my family and saying, "peace..." and the same thing with my family to him... weird! if you didn't know, my family doesn't like him... AT ALL...my brothers even make fun of him and always ask me why i even like him...so anyway, after the mass, i was talking to my mom as we were waiting at the lobby for my brothers to arrive(they had to go home to get the other car)... i was asking her about the "peace" thing, if it was a good thing and a plus... she said it was! she mentioned that she was "impressed" coz he faced them and nodded(meaning "peace", no duh!) with the matching smile! hahaha... to sum everything up, this day wasn't as good as i expected... but also not as bad as i thought! ;) |
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