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6.07.2003
i'm still awake and still bored... i woke up at around 9:30 this morning... i had an appointment with this dermatologist that my dad knew... i went there empty handed and went home with a plastic full of new medicine stuff that the dermatologist gave me...
when i went to my dad's clinic this morning (before that derma thingy), he asked me to stay on the other side of that clinic and wait for him... i was surprised to see that there was another doctor there... i told her that my dad asked me to wait for him there... then she looked at me with a weird grin on her face.. then she turned her back and looked at the table behind her which had our family pics and stuff... then she turned to me and apologized for not recognizing me... she said she thought that i was still a little girl! hahahaha... i've been to my dad's clinic in that hospital a few times before... but it was only today that i noticed... the pictures on that table:: one was our family pic - an old one, then the other one was a pic of my brothers and i - an old pic too.. then there were 2 other pictures of me when i was a kid... take note: 2 pictures of me... only me... i realized then how much my dad really loves and treasures me... i never really noticed that he kept 2 pictures of me in his clinic... those that i mentioned were the only family-related pics on that table in his clinic... that was really touching... there was this other thing that i went to today but i don't want to blog about it anymore... nothing happened anyway... babye!
6.04.2003
9:29am if this was a normal day, i'd still be sleeping at this time... i won't be up until 3 hours after... but no, this isn't a normal day.... it's my mom's bday... kuya mik woke me up at around 7:30am... he told me that my mom wanted me to go with her to the parlor... another unusual thing is that i've already taken a bath... if this was a normal day, i would have only taken a bath when it's already 2pm or even later than that... but, as i've mentioned, this isn't a normal day... and no, i still don't have a gift for my mom... tsk, tsk... and my brothers don't have gifts for her either... that's just great... is this still insomnia that i am experiencing?! coz it's way worse than before and what other insomniacs experience... other insomniacs sleep in the wee hours of the morning coz they only wake up in the afternoon and they don't do anything the whole day... but me, even if i wake up at 10am and tire myself, i still only get to sleep when it's already 2am... the other day, when we went to antipolo, i had to wake up at 6am... i was exhausted when we got home but i still couldn't sleep... i even don't sleep in the afternoon even if i feel sleepy, hoping that my "sleepiness" would lead to sleeping earlier... what time do i fall asleep? 2am... heck... i'm watching any given thursday right now... i have a weird taste in music... i can listen to almost anything at all... except those songs which have lyrics i can't understand... what's with the f4 mania?! back to john mayer... how long will it take for me to play like john?! i wish i could play like that without the guitar face... hahaha... it's already 10:05am and i still don't see any sign of my mom wanting to go to the parlor... she's still busy fixing her beloved new and improved gazebo... and, i just have to say, it really looks nice... better than when it was first built... the other thing we're waiting for is our new house... now that's really exciting! im still here... just trying to find something to do online... i don't even know what else to blog about anymore... so i guess i'll just blog again when there is something to blog about... haha.. babye!
just this once... magtatagalog po ako!!! :b
matagal-tagal na rin akong hindi nakapag-internet... madami nanaman akong kailangang basahing mga blog... hai nako, kung hindi ko lang kayo mahal... sobra na akong bad trip ngayon dahil kahit gano kaaga pa ako humiga sa kama ko, alas dos ng umaga na talaga ako nakakatulog! kahit pagurin ko pa sarili ko, ganun pa rin! at yung masama pa dun, wala na kong magawa habang hindi pa ako makatulog... lahat ng mga karamay ko dati na insomniac, maaga na nakakatulog! pano naman ako? =..( hindi na talaga 'to nakakatuwa! sobra sobra na e... wow, ang saya nito! ngayon na nga lang ako makakapag internet ulet, nagloloko pa yung connection! ang galing talaga! yan, sakto... kakatype ko lang, nagdisconnect nanaman! habang yung iba dyan nagpapakabaliw sa meteor garden at f4, hindi pa rin ako nahahawa dun... pero natututok na ako sa telenobela! hahahaha... yung sana'y wala nang wakas! whoohoo! ang gwapo ni jericho! :b nako.. bday na ng nanay ko bukas, wala pa rin akong regalo sa kanya! dapat nga pupunta ako ng gh ngayon e... pero dahil madaming ginagawa dito, hindi na ako nakapunta... patay... pati mga kuya ko wala pa ring mga regalo... pano na 'to?! hindi pa naman gumagana ang "artistic skills" ko ngayon... kung meron man ako... ano pa bang bago?! mahal ko na ng sobra sobra ang good charlotte! haha... astig astig astig... pampatulog ko na nga yung mga yun e! tama na... makiki trivia muna ako sa #spcp06! babye!! |
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likes:: music. writing. reading. internet. friends. guitar. cds. radio. tv. benji madden. joel madden. pierre bouvier. andy roddick. HiM. sacramento kings. basketball. badminton. blog. red. black. orange. good charlotte. simple plan. linkin park. default. john mayer. all american rejects. the ataris. yahoo. google. blogger. the fast and the furious. monsters, inc. ten things i hate about you. lizzie mcguire. sana'y wala nang wakas. csi. six feet under. hates:: avril lavigne. f4. meteor garden. bestfriends. wants:: ten things i hate about you dvd. spin mag featuring simple plan. blender mag featuring simple plan. new shoes. new pants. the guardian by nicholas sparks. almost kinda acoustic. movin' on - GC when i think about my life i wonder if i will survive to live to see 25 or will i just fall? like all my friends, they just keep dying people 'round me always crying in this place that i like to call my home not everybody knows that everybody goes to a better place not everybody knows that everyone could be living their last days but the hard times will come, and we'll keep movin' on, we're movin' up keep movin' on life. hope. truth. trust. faith. pride. love. lust. on without the things we've lost the things we've gained we'll take with us and all i've got are these two hands to make myself a better man i wonder if i'll ever see the end of this with all this rain it just keeps falling on my head and now i'm calling out to someone else to help me make it through pain. hate. lies. guilt. laugh. cry. live. die. some friends become enemies some friends become your family make the best with what you're given this ain't dying this is living! said we're movin' on, and we got nothing to prove to anyone 'cause we'll get through we're movin' on and on and on and on... keep movin' on easier to run - LP it's easier to run replacing this pain with something numb it's so much easier to go than face all this pain here all alone something has been taken from deep inside of me a secret i've kept locked away no one can ever see wounds so deep they never show they never go away like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played if i could change i would take back the pain i would retrace every wrong move that i made i would if i could stand up and take the blame i would if i could take all the shame to the grave i would sometimes i remember the darkness of my past bringing back these memories i wish i didn't have sometimes i think of letting go and never looking back and never moving forward so there would never be a past just washing it aside all of the helplessness inside pretending i don't feel misplaced is so much simpler than change you're good! |