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6.14.2003
ito na ko ulit... hai nako... tampo ako... wala man lang bang gimik?! yun lang? kayo lang? ang daya... bahala ka... mamimiss mo din kami..
yan lang naiisip ko ngayon... na aalis ka na nga... hai nako... hindi na ako makapagplano ng kahit ano para sayo dahil meh pasok nanaman tapos sa saturday ka na aalis... pano yun?! san kita pwedeng masingit?! hmp... ayoko na ata muna mag-blog... masyado akong bad trip at depressed... ayoko na... lahat ng tao nagaalisan na... iwanan na talaga 'to...
tagalog ulit
sunday nanaman... hindi ko alam kung mae-excite ba ako o hindi... at least diba, makikita ko siya at maco-confirm na buhay nga siya... hahahahaha... weird... siguro ayoko rin mag-sunday dahil alam kong sunod na araw dun monday... at ayoko pang mag-monday, obviously... ayoko pang pumasok kahit na matagal nang ayos yung mga gamit ko... bago nanamang classroom... bago nanamang mga kaklase... bago nanamang mga teacher... sana lang wala nang mga taong sobrang nakakairita na gusto ko na maging mamamatay-tao dahil sa sobrang asar... sandali lang... babalik ako para ituloy ito... sasagot lang ako nung forwarded na quiz... babye!
6.13.2003
i just saw frances' blog and she put the pics of her "dream cars" there... i just realized, this has been (yes, still is) my dream car ever since i saw the fast and the furious... i think, by now, i've already watched it for more than 50 times! hahaha... some people have even seen (now this is really pathetic) my pic with that car when i went to the universal studios... i got all excited when i saw that car parked there... i'm really weird when i become a fan of something or someone... sorry to all the people who i've been with when i become all perky coz of the things i see... hahaha... wag nyo ko itakwil!!!
now this is the movie i always go crazy over... even just the sight of a monsters, inc. toy makes me go crazy... i know most of you have seen boo sewn at the back of my tie last school year... hahahaha... i plan on sewing her on again this year... :) yes, i am what you call a fanatic... or maybe, i'm just a retarded psycho! whatever.. all i know is that i love monsters, inc.! i'm such a fanatic that i don't even care what any of you think about how i cried over the monsters, inc. toy that kuya mik told me wasn't being bought for me... at least it was for me! and i'm happy... this is just another one of my pointless blog entries... i just wanted to see the pictures... hahahahahahahaha.... and... i'm waiting for someone to go online... anyone.... babye!
6.12.2003
have you ever had a dream that someone you love died? people say that the opposite of what you dream about is what will happen... in this case, that someone in your dream live a longer life...but sometimes, though you know what it already means, you still tend to worry about what you dreamed about...
this morning, i had a "dream" that you-know-who died... what's weird is that i already woke up from that dream... it was like, 10am... then i closed my eyes again... then the dream still continued! in the first part of the dream, i wasn't crying.... it didn't register in my mind that he had already died (in my dream)... then on the second part (after i already woke up and slept again), i started to cry... i went outside the room where most of the people were... i went to the hall with this person (i can't remember who that was)... that's where i really started to cry... then his sister went out too... then we started to talk there... i was still crying when the dream was about to end... when i woke up, i still felt the tears on my cheeks... heck! when i tried to remember what happened in my dream, my heart beat 3 times faster than normal... maybe i was crying coz he still didn't know how i felt... you know, those typical movie stuff when someone dies... errrr.... i hate that dream!
i've been going on and offline for 4 times already... i have nothing to do again... even when i'm already online... for three days in a row, i played badminton with ate kat on the street just in front of our house... in approximately 8-9 months, we won't need to play on the street coz we might already have a badminton court... whoohoo!!
just for this day, i've heard i can't read you for more than 5 times! i'm falling in love with daniel bedingfield's voice in that song! :) it's really weird how i liked pop then rock then pop and rock at the same time! for once i just like to like(?!) listening to just one kind of music... well maybe that just won't work for me... hehehe... be back...
6.11.2003
just bought another isp... i was online the other day then i just got disconnected and couldn't connect even after more than 20 times of redialling... it was obvious that i didn't have any internet hours left...
i was supposed to blog about something last sunday, but for some reason, there were just no words that could describe exactly how i feel... i just felt really bad... and at the same time, all perky! those i've talked to on the phone in the past few days already know why i was and am perky... hehehe... how i wish he'll always look like that... :) i just got a haircut... i actually like how my hair looks now except for the comment i got from the guy who cut my hair... he told me i now look like someone from meteor garden! heck!!! of all the things anyone could ever tell me... maybe he thought i liked meteor garden... but obviously, I DON'T!!! school's in 5 days... heck... i don't want to go back yet... but i have to... i'm just glad that i am no longer in that dugtong dunong math class... and that i know where my classroom is.. :b to all my vertigo and ROC friends, i miss all of you! to my csmc "choirmates", mischi says she misses all of you! hahaha... :b babye! |
links ate din's ate din's again jen's eprel's glennie's ella's burn's ging's ly's pam's thea's thea's again ROC's vertigo's alive's jammers' burn's site camz's site pam's site
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likes:: music. writing. reading. internet. friends. guitar. cds. radio. tv. benji madden. joel madden. pierre bouvier. andy roddick. HiM. sacramento kings. basketball. badminton. blog. red. black. orange. good charlotte. simple plan. linkin park. default. john mayer. all american rejects. the ataris. yahoo. google. blogger. the fast and the furious. monsters, inc. ten things i hate about you. lizzie mcguire. sana'y wala nang wakas. csi. six feet under. hates:: avril lavigne. f4. meteor garden. bestfriends. wants:: ten things i hate about you dvd. spin mag featuring simple plan. blender mag featuring simple plan. new shoes. new pants. the guardian by nicholas sparks. almost kinda acoustic. movin' on - GC when i think about my life i wonder if i will survive to live to see 25 or will i just fall? like all my friends, they just keep dying people 'round me always crying in this place that i like to call my home not everybody knows that everybody goes to a better place not everybody knows that everyone could be living their last days but the hard times will come, and we'll keep movin' on, we're movin' up keep movin' on life. hope. truth. trust. faith. pride. love. lust. on without the things we've lost the things we've gained we'll take with us and all i've got are these two hands to make myself a better man i wonder if i'll ever see the end of this with all this rain it just keeps falling on my head and now i'm calling out to someone else to help me make it through pain. hate. lies. guilt. laugh. cry. live. die. some friends become enemies some friends become your family make the best with what you're given this ain't dying this is living! said we're movin' on, and we got nothing to prove to anyone 'cause we'll get through we're movin' on and on and on and on... keep movin' on easier to run - LP it's easier to run replacing this pain with something numb it's so much easier to go than face all this pain here all alone something has been taken from deep inside of me a secret i've kept locked away no one can ever see wounds so deep they never show they never go away like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played if i could change i would take back the pain i would retrace every wrong move that i made i would if i could stand up and take the blame i would if i could take all the shame to the grave i would sometimes i remember the darkness of my past bringing back these memories i wish i didn't have sometimes i think of letting go and never looking back and never moving forward so there would never be a past just washing it aside all of the helplessness inside pretending i don't feel misplaced is so much simpler than change you're good! |