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6.26.2003
hallo... :) when i got home, i was is a bad mood (yet again..)... i just auditioned for MAC.. yep, my finger still hurt but i wanted to get over the audition already.. i was the first person to audition since i had submitted my form yesterday... i wasn't really that nervous when i was about to audition... but when i started to play and saw the core's reaction and sir ducay's, i was too afraid to look at their faces again while i played... it was very creepy seeing their reactions... then... the bad part... jen auditioned too (no, that's not yet the bad part!) and told me that they were all smiling when she was playing! oh heck! now that made me even more nervous... and now the good part... when i got home, i was all disappointed and all that... then... kate texted me... she's part of the core... she told me that i was "great(?)" in the audition and that my standing looked really good! whooooohooooo!!!
next topic.. when i went online, i checked to see if "he" had chatted... and, guess what? "he" did... he went offline just after almost 2 hours after i went online! i think we're not meant to chat... hmmm... just have to wait for sunday... and, hopefully (that's my word of the day), i get to hear mass on the same time that he will... huhh?! labo! basta! sana sabay kami! nauubos na ingles ko e! slight change of topic:: it really hurts whenever i see "his" crush... :( it hurts coz i know how much "he" really, really, really loves her... :( oh well...
6.25.2003
just got home from school... i'm kind of in a bad mood... i was sooo ready to audition for MAC (again), though i really was nervous.. i've been practicing the whole day... i already filled up the form and submitted it to the core.. but guess what... i had to go home... why is it that when i already need to get home, that's when my bus arrives late... but when i need to stay in school to do something, that's when they decide to arrive early! tomorrow will just be another day of me showing off my guitar skills (if i have any), me getting nervous and people telling me not to get nervous coz they're sure i'll pass the audition... whooo... right... but what if i don't?! i don't have any other club to join... so, i really hope i pass their standards! hahaha... (ayes... lalim!)
my finger really hurts already... even just when im typing, it hurts... so why am i still online? im just waiting for "him"... i hope he will go online today coz i've endured (thanks for the word, april!) the pain of this freakin finger just to chat with "him"... hahaha... if by 7pm, he's still not online, im going to diconnect from the internet... i think my finger is starting to swell... AND IT REALLY HURTS!!! im not gonna play the guitar on the next couple of days after my audition... owww... =..( ang sakit na talaga!! dumating ka na pleeease.....
6.23.2003
hallo! :) yep, i'm happy, obviously... i got to chat with "him"... i went online to try to find the chords for anima christi which i needed for the MAC auditions... i asked my bro to teach me to play the song plucking... while i was waiting for the page to load, i decided to go online to see who was chatting on irc... then i saw his nickname! oh heck! i got all perky and excited... then i told "him" that i would be right back coz i was going to transfer to the other computer... then i saw my dad using it, so i rushed him just to be able to chat with "him"... then, when i finally got online, he was gone! i got pissed off realizing that he had just gotten offline 4 minutes before i went online! i didn't see him yesterday and today, when we finally had the chance to talk, he went offline! then... just when i was really getting pissed off, i get a message on my fone, from "him"!!! he apologized and said said that he had to eat dinner so he had to go offline... just when i was getting all emotional... haiiii... :)
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